So here we are, at the end of #oneweek, and like the last vestiges of the season - the drying leaves, the melted ice cream - I'm feeling a little weary. And it's left me wondering, how was this summer?
Well the weather followed a predictably linear pattern. Rain. Rain. Drizzle. Rain. The sun was irritatingly coquettish making uncommitted appearances in July and August. I have decided autumn is the new summer.
There was the Queen's Jubilee. Wasn't that a long time ago now? The Euros. I never bothered watching. The fabulous Olympics and Para Olympics in my home town. London never felt so alive. Andy Murray won the the US open! Wimbledon next year anybody?
Little A started nursery. Little A mastered her scooter. Little A paddled in the sea. Little A wore big girl pants. And, Little A ate A LOT of ice cream.
But how have the last few months been for me?
Well, there were certainly a number of firsts. I attended my first blogging conference. My blog amazingly reached its first birthday. Little A and I found ourselves locked outside the front door. I ate my first steak (medium rare) in many, many years - it was delicious by the way.
Then there was depression, the realisation I needed medication, then tolerating their undesirable side effects. I thought I was on the mend. But the week before our holiday I dipped. I felt empty. Motionless. I worried that I might need a higher dose...
One morning, on holiday in Cornwall, I woke up and I felt .... Fine. Unusually good. Happy. Calm. Untroubled. And it's been that way ever since, well most of the time. Dare I whisper it, very quietly now, I don't want to tempt the demons of fate, "I'm not depressed."
Finally, I'm drawn to colour. I'm drawn to life. I'm enthusing. How wonderful to feel the energy in my veins. How marvelous to admire the detail in the everyday.
The holiday cottage garden was full of blooming flowers and skittery butterflies. The colour, the vibrancy, spoke to my new found lightness. I breathed slowly, evenly, communing with the buzzing, twittering, country smells, farmyard sounds...
And the butterflies let me come close. Very close.
This is the final day of the seasonal linky One Week. I wanted to say a big, big thank you to all those lovely bloggers who joined in, and those who commented in support of my new blogging project.
One Week will return this Autumn for another five days, 12 - 16 November. So get your cameras at the ready and imaginative hats on!
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