Friday, 14 September 2012

#One Week - Summer '12 - Finally

So here we are, at the end of #oneweek, and like the last vestiges of the season - the drying leaves, the melted ice cream - I'm feeling a little weary. And it's left me wondering, how was this summer?

Well the weather followed a predictably linear pattern. Rain. Rain. Drizzle. Rain. The sun was irritatingly coquettish making uncommitted appearances in July and August. I have decided autumn is the new summer.   

There was the Queen's Jubilee. Wasn't that a long time ago now?  The Euros. I never bothered watching. The fabulous Olympics and Para Olympics in my home town. London never felt so alive. Andy Murray won the the US open! Wimbledon next year anybody?  

Little A started nursery. Little A mastered her scooter. Little A paddled in the sea. Little A wore big girl pants. And, Little A ate A LOT of ice cream.

But how have the last few months been for me?


Well, there were certainly a number of firsts. I attended my first blogging conference. My blog amazingly reached its first birthday. Little A and I found ourselves locked outside the front door. I ate my first steak (medium rare) in many, many years - it was delicious by the way.


Then there was depression, the realisation I needed medication, then tolerating their undesirable side effects. I thought I was on the mend. But the week before our holiday I dipped. I felt empty. Motionless. I worried that I might need a higher dose...


One morning, on holiday in Cornwall, I woke up and I felt .... Fine. Unusually good. Happy. Calm. Untroubled. And it's been that way ever since, well most of the time. Dare I whisper it, very quietly now, I don't want to tempt the demons of fate, "I'm not depressed."

FINALLY.

Finally, I'm drawn to colour. I'm drawn to life. I'm enthusing. How wonderful to feel the energy in my veins. How marvelous to admire the detail in the everyday.

The holiday cottage garden was full of blooming flowers and skittery butterflies. The colour, the vibrancy, spoke to my new found lightness. I breathed slowly, evenly, communing with the buzzing, twittering, country smells, farmyard sounds...

And the butterflies let me come close. Very close.



This is the final day of the seasonal linky One Week. I wanted to say a big, big thank you to all those lovely bloggers who joined in, and those who commented in support of my new blogging project.

One Week will return this Autumn for another five days, 12 - 16 November. So get your cameras at the ready and imaginative hats on!

For more details about One Week, take a gander here. You can join in for one, two ... or the full five days...


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22 comments:

  1. I am glad that you are feeling better love. Thanks for hosting this great meme. It has been an excellent way of taking stock of the summer. Love your butterfly!

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    1. Thank you - glad you enjoyed it - and I hope you come back for the one in Autumn. The flutterby rocks!

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  2. I'm so pleased to hear that...*whispers* you're feeling brighter. I love your photos. Splendid. Really enjoyed reading your linky this week. Great idea. Will def try to join up for the autumn slot. x

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    1. Would be great if you wanted to - but don't feel any pressure - it will be getting pretty close for you by then :o) X.

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  3. what a lovely post. hope you continue to feel 'awakened"
    im up to number three of my one week posts! ill get there xx

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    1. Thank you! Just about to read your post now! X.

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  4. gorgeous photographs and inspiring words.

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  5. Lovely photos. Sorry i didn't join in on your fab linky (i intended too)but thinks aren't easy this end. . .a bit difficult so see beauty at the moment

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    1. No worries - there's always the Autumn one - and you don't have to join in for the full thing. Sorry to hear that things are tough at the moment.

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  6. They are gorgeous, I love the butterfly. I've never been able to capture anything like that.

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  7. I've really enjoyed looking at your photos this week. I can believe you got a butterfly to pose for you. Bring on Autumn week!

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    1. Thank you! Will be great if you can join in for the Autumn week! :o).

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  8. So glad to read that the depression has lifted, depression can be funny like that can't it? I'm lucky in that I haven't had a long bout of it for many years, but I felt myself sinking again at the weekend, it is always an emotional knock that sends me off kilter. Today, it has gone. The pain of the emotion hasn't gone, but the depression has gone, the numbness and all the other delights.

    Anyway, long may your depression be banished from your life. Wish I'd known about your blogging project, I've clearly had my head far too turned onto my new website to notice fabulous things like this, I must make amends!

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    1. Thank you for your lovely and thoughtful comment. Its not nice that sinking feeling. Emotional knocks send me off kilter too! I am glad you are feeling better - at least you can feel the feelings, albeit painful - you can do something with those. Please do join in for the Autumn one - you don't have to do it for the full five days ...

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  9. What an amazing post. So pleased that you are on your way back from depression.

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    1. Thank you! Certainly getting there!

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